Today a group of us were going to swim and eat and play games at someone’s house. Talk about an anxiety attack for me. I don’t know them all very well…and I am supposed to come there and swim in a bathing suit? Alrighty…lemme just go on a laxative binge first! I was freaking out today! Not to mention I got my fatty period and I am breaking out everywhere. So ugly. Luckily my boyfriend discretely saved me and asked if I wanted to come to his house to visit his extended family.
Bloated, breaking out, fat, and ugly. I am a disgusting combination. I am supposed to be at church, visiting people with a fake smile and a plastic laugh. But I couldn’t do it today. I can’t bear going outside so people can judge and see how massive I have become again. I want to hide from everyone forever until I come out as my UGW. I feel sick.
Girls: You mean a thin girl with big boobs and bum
